Anything in your life that's acting as a security blanket is only smothering the person you were born to be. ~ Mandy Hale
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I have a tendency to be a leaner. i can't say i have always been that way. i'd say it's been more of a progression to leaning. a lot of things have happened in my life that have taken my life from mundane to interesting....but not in a good way. I and those who have shared my life journey...we have needed to support one another and to lean on one another for strength.and so, over time, as more things happened i became a leaner. not on everyone mind you; just those who have offered me their shoulder.but, even those who shared my life journey, who offered me their shoulder, had their own lives to live. those lives took them out into the world on a daily basis - their lives, beyond me, were full of interaction with others and meeting and greeting and sharing. mine kept me in the same places, doing a lot of the same things...and home. not complaining mind you. i chose my life and i am happy with my choices. just sayin...explainin i didn't have to worry about the world beyond my life because i had very little interaction with it. i lived it vicariously through my friends. and they allowed it because they knew i needed tol ean on them and they let me.
however, now that i have a chance to move on and get out into the world, i find it is hard to move beyond the life i have become accustomed to. i believe that the life and those who were my life-line during times when i needed that support have become my security blanket; the thing i hold on to because i don't know what is out there in the world for me. in a sense i have allowed them to help me fold my wings away so effectively that i have forgotten not only how to fly but that i CAN fly. i have allowed the situation to smother who i am. i put aside the me i could be to be the me i needed to be at the time to do the things i needed to do and now that i can be the me i put aside i have forgotten how.
things and people don't become security blankets by their choice. we make them our security blankets. i did. i leaned on the situation and certain people for the support i needed to get through things. i became so enmeshed in my life situation that i forgot there is a me beyond my circumstance. i made the circumstance me. i made the people who were there to support me my security blanket. i need to learn to let them go so they can return to their rightful place as friend or family member or colleague or whatever ..... and for all of you like me, you need to do the same.
by learning to lean on me, trust me, look to me, i become my own security blanket which i can throw off or put on as needed while still allowing my friends and family to be my friends and family. this is clearly not an easy task. but it is a necessary one if i am to discover who i am and what i am to do. it also allows my friends to fully be my friends...people i laugh with, have good times with and share with while being fully me and allowing them to be fully them; and while supporting who they are and enjoying their support of who i truly am.
so maybe the quote is accurate ...because i let my circumstances and some of the people in my life act as my security blanket, i allowed the circumstance and those people to smother the person i was born to be. well, it is time for me to let go of the circumstance and allow those people to return to their rightful place in my life. a form of letting go (which i stink at). once i have done that, i will open the windows and doors of my life to let fresh, new, clean air in....to let spring in with all its hope and promise of possibility.
and all of you who are like me...should do the same. let go of your security blanket, move on with your life, discover who you are, be the best you can be, take care of you yourself and feel good.
as i write these words, i feel good....i know this is going to be a good year for me, how does that song go...
it is a new dawn
it is a new day
it is a new life...for me
and i'm feelin' good
